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I just feel this is really my year, everything is good and fine so far, especially for May. And my baby is traveling the world for me, gosh it moves every part of my heart. Thanks Darling. And I do think that I always have your blessing. Right now, in my mind, I really hope for AMS, FRA, CDG, LHR, FOC, JFK, yes, cos I really REALLY LIKE THERE.
These days, been working hard to wait for my days come, things run really smooth and lovely, but i gotta learn something else I know, which is my weakest part I know. ||||| But anyways, I have never been so great in my life before, I am enjoying every second of breath, thank to the first experience of closely approaching to death. I would cherish my hearlthy body more and more.
Staying home, having dinner like the other day in Christmas and my Birthday is something I thought really wasting time and kinda stupid. However, it is indeed the way I found my temple. There is something inspired/reminded me on TV before Christmas this year, I saw the priest on TV reminding us to find back the true meaning of Christmas, since it has become more materialistic year after year. People may even think Christmas is for presents and parties. Well.. I can't say I didn't expect anything for my Christmas or Birthday, it is never too late to get it back in my mind indeed. And I am ever happier than before.
Loving my family lots, and I will never forget the last and this December in my life.
Last year, this time, I stood up the whole night and cried.
All my feelings were unleashed, all my tears saved for years rushed out.
This year, today, whenever I think of her, I feel like to cry, I really can't get rid of the regrets, and I still can't.
Grandma... I still feel the same as you are always around, sitting at home nearby the front door. I gotta stop it now,
cos I don't wanna cry.
Soon it has been a year, and there is never a day I don't miss you. There are still too much tears to cry, I don't know why...
And I still have a lot of targets LOLOLOLOL !!! Doesn't matter, I will have a new part-time job. LOVE YA BON, Shushu and JEN.
Ok, this is so wonderful tonight, everything is super fine, I hadn't gone for a night out for sooo long already, LOL guys I am back LOLOLOL.. Ok, I am crazy again. Oh yea, thanks Jenny and Shu Shu to carry out a brief check about my body condition, ok, anemia... I will try to find a way to get it away from me. Sigh... Coming back to my 'thank you note" here (haha), Ok, Bonnie you are my best-friend for all my life, Misa thanks for your listening about my crazy and complicated feelings about 'that'. I dunno I dunno I dunno ...
The first thing I gotta do now is finishing my assignment, that's my nightmare... I am still awaked anyway.
That's the best decision ever. My heart is free now, thanks.
Fall makes people dream a lot. That's really true.
Talked to Bonnie last night, that's really crazy lol, you picked Greece and I picked Spain, let's set off!!! LOL (When will we go to beach again btw? XXXXXD I can't wait to go swimming in beach, I MISS IT SOOO MUCH SO MUCH SO MUCH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hey, I wanna learn surfing !!!! Or we should join the Thai Boxing ?? I am ready for both !) HAHA I can't wait for parties again, lol don't think we would get drunk, cos you don't drink I know. Jen might come back and work here. It could be the best issue this year for me, there are already enough too much sufferings in my 2007. I am through with it. Anyway, I just need some fun lol.
Oh yea, I got a pic on net :
The grave/casket made by Siu Hak, one of
the well-known HK Graphic Designer, lying
his 2 best-loved cats inside the casket.
The crosses on top of the casket belong to
the dead fleas living with his cats.
How loving he felt to his loves.
I just love my Suika so much so much, she is the only one I kiss all over. No matter what she does to me, I can still stand it, I think that's love. LOL Hoping that I could have someone I could do the same as doing to Suika to him. LOL Yes, the option is still OPEN WOWWW !!!!! (Crazy Again)
<< 曖昧 >>
曖昧讓人受盡委屈 找不到相愛的證據
何時該前進 何時該放棄 連擁抱都沒有勇氣
只能陪你到這裡 畢竟有些事不可以
超過了友情 還不到愛情 遠方就要下雨的風景
到底該不該哭泣 想得太多的是我還是你
我很不服氣 也開始懷疑
眼前的人 是不是同一個 真實的你
曖昧讓人受盡委屈 找不到相愛的證據
何時該前進 何時該放棄 連擁抱都沒有勇氣
曖昧讓人變得貪心 直到等待失去意義
無奈我和你 寫不出結局 放遺憾的美麗 停在這裡
My heart is floating, my mind is so messy again, I can't get everything clear now.
Trying to anethetize myself, it seems hard though.
This is my favourite pictures with Suika. Sigh.... I don't have any other good pictures with her, she's always the diva HAHAHAHA.But I am super exhaused lately, all my energy gone when I got home after work.... This is the most hard-working and serious moment I ever have in my life |||||||||||||-_- (The first time to work hard AHHAHAHAHAHA in 20 years, soon to be 21... sigh) Obviously, you can see how tired I am in my pictures.... Needa get my energy back.
Soon to be Nov, "JOIN THE TEAM, MAKE THE DREAM" has been clinging to my heart, please let me in this time. I want it so bad.
Oh right, there is one thing I really like to say, I found myself changed, I am really sensitive when I get into a crowded area, I don't want 'that' thing happened again, I had cried enough for that already, no more second round. . . . HAHA ok... I am just silly.. always think about silly stuffs, nothing is gonna happen I know. (I hope |||||) Oh Yea, school will start again NEXT WEEK, I am really looking forward to it, cos it is counted as my CEF programme, I can claim my money back ! So, I must attend to lessons hahahahaahha (Main Reason)
Aiya.... my mind is really messy now, that's normal for now, cos I just got home for not more than 2 hours... and soon to get some sleep...
Imagine Lyrics
» John Lennon
Imagine there's no heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today...
Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace...
You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one
Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world...
You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one
Now, my dreams are coming true one by one with my age growing.
Surprised me, my friend is pregnant, she is expecting her baby with her husband in the coming December. LOLOLOL I can't wait to see the baby. When I asked her what was the gender of the baby, no answer could be given, she just wants to save it till she give born to the baby. For me, I like girls more. I wish I will have a girl too. (not now of course)
Lol I finally changed the layout of my journal, I really like elephants indeed, so it wins my heart in the very first sight I spotted it. Haha
This is a grey day, windy and rainy. That's lovely for October, cos it is supposed to be like that in Autumn. I haven't experienced it for years since I got into secondary school, thanks to the Global Warming Issue - it fucks me up. BUT BUT BUT One thing I have to say is that my luck is coming back to me. WOWOWOWOOWOW I have been expecting it FOR SOOOO LONG. After finishing my nanny's funeral, everything gets smooth itself. (Sigh)
I got another happy thing, cos I sent the package out to Sweden already (finally), it really loaded off my mind a bit haha, cos I am really scared that I will be late for the special date indeed. (haha)
Think I really have to get a part-time job first, to save some money for my next interview, I WILL TRY MY BEST BEST BEST BEST BESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
It is really a grey good start today... LoL I love October.
Umm.... Having a serious thinking for a couple of weeks, I think I know what I should do now. Yes, I always try to convince myself and tell myself that I am doing right, yes, sometimes, it might be wrong, but it could be right as well. (That's what I really think) I truly feel that I was right to make my decision of quiting the uni in China, it is the most enjoyable study in my life ever. I am closer to the reality, I can feel that I am in a real world now. Being a cabin crew is one of my dream jobs, but that's not everything indeed. Ok, I must give a shoot to every opportunity, but I can have other choices as well. Anyways, I know what I am doing and I must work hard for my coming and bright future.
Sigh....
I am twisted... cos I am more into women.. I gotta figure out what's my problem.
Here are some pictures of our night together...
Thanks guys, and a late Happy Birthday to Angellily.What if 2 people in two different places,
What if 2 people want to find each other,
What if 1 person scares of getting lost,
What if 1 person scares of taking a wrong way,
What if 1 person walks and 1 person stops,
What if 1 person walks fast and 1 person walks slowly,
Will they ever meet?
My bestfriend told me that "Trust is more reliable than what you can see.", and I believe in it, and I trust her.
After a long 'vacation' haha, schools finally started. Coming back to my original studying style, which makes me cool. I can tell, studying in Hong Kong is much better than in China, they are 2 different things. Anyways, I feel good for my studies and myself.
Lately, I have been so hard-working on my LCC study programme, never have I thought myself could be really interested in calculations. Finally, I found the answers "yes, I love Maths.". Wow, I used to hate Maths a lot, but my boyfriend always told me that I am just too lazy to do the calculations, I wouldn't have once believed him, but I do now. haha ok, I am really such a shit, cos I wasted a lot of time in the past and also now. I hope I won't waste anything in my life anymore (hard tho hahahah).
Well I got my hair straight again, now things get more simple now when I get up and rush to the MTR station to school every day. Haha just a simple groom is ok now. LOL i am so lazy indeed. So, I have to go on my crazying chasing of Naruto now haha... can't write now.
SAVE OUR QUEEN'S PIER !!!!
Sigh....Again and Again
Feeling really trapped.
Feeling like cutting myself.
Thinking that's silly.
Who else can ever save me.
Gosh...
Something is wrong...
Ummm.... think I got lost for several days, but I am back. LOL Feeling confused with an occasional loneliness hahaha, that's why I lost myself, but I am more clear now. So care free now. But there is always one thing for sure, and no matter what I am not going to change it, or maybe until I make it real. So blurirng, right? No explanation. I keep this secret to myself. That's my news and Not news haha.
